Off center and ready to snap 10/8

This is a picture of the sunrise this morning, it was so beautiful that I cried.

It is now about 12 hours later and I am off and ready to snap.

How can that be??…I literally connected to this higher power -breathed beautiful air, listened to incredible music on my headphones, received chills of connection all over my body- cried tears of joy at the beauty I cannot even explain.

And now…my energy is depleted and I have nothing to give anyone.

What do I do?

I make a cup of coffee, get on a recovery zoom meeting and I listen. My head shuts up and I listen.

I listen to the others. Some who are eating out of dumpsters to survive. Some who have lost children to this terrible disease. I listen to the new person full of hope. I listen to the struggling addict who has clean time but has lost their zest for life. I listen to the ones who get to the other side of pain without picking up.

The sun will rise again tomorrow and god will be there and hopefully I will too.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

14 thoughts on “Off center and ready to snap 10/8

  1. Yes, how beautiful to hold onto that moment forever!. But you held onto it because it was just a moment. See now you are richer for it, and have shared this with others. Be safe and well, greetings from Oz.

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  2. That beautiful landscape will be there tomorrow, and the next day and the next, but it will change with the weather and the season. We are also part if nature and change with the seasons. ⚘🙏

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  3. “This I recall to my mind, therefore have I hope.
    It is of the Lord’s mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not.
    They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.
    The Lord is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him.
    The Lord is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeketh him.”
    Lamentations 3:21-25


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  4. Hi, gracefuladdict. Thank you for following my blog We also have a daily Zoom AA meeting, in addition to our Facebook page at I am a recovering alcoholic with 45 years of continuous sobriety and a life that now is Too Blessed to be Stressed. The Zoom meeting is every Monday through Friday, 3:00 PM EST. The meeting ID is 6035280704, Password 399778. You and your followers are welcome to attend. Hope to see you soon – Jim Boylan

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