Stockholm Syndrome and Addiction 10/9

Stockholm syndrome is defined as : a psychological/emotional condition where hostages form a bond with their captures and thereby refuse to testify against them.

When I first learned about Stockholm syndrome it completely reminded me of being held captive in the throws of the disease of addiction.

When I was an active addict I had no choice but to use and to think about what I was going to use and where and when I was going to get it.

I would not tell on my disease for anything!! I hid it. I lied for it. I protected it…just like the hostages, I formed a bond with my capture…and would not let anyone or anything near it.

I was so sick that I had no idea that I was sick. My disease – my capture told me I looked great and had me thinking my behavior was completely normal.

The things my disease – my capture told me were beyond manipulative. It groomed me for years and years…one day after another it kept telling me I could use and I was not hurting anybody at all.

In the end it told me “it” was all that I had and nothing else mattered. It told me that I would die without it….that I could not survive one minute on my own.

It had me by the throat and I thanked it.

The only thing I know that is more powerful than that…is god.

Thank you god for pulling me out of that living hell and back to this beautiful earth.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

4 thoughts on “Stockholm Syndrome and Addiction 10/9

  1. A very good analogy, true knowledge is ever filled with self discovery… a hard and yet a blessed journey. Thank you for sharing your journey with us!

    BT

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