Stockholm syndrome is defined as : a psychological/emotional condition where hostages form a bond with their captures and thereby refuse to testify against them.
When I first learned about Stockholm syndrome it completely reminded me of being held captive in the throws of the disease of addiction.
When I was an active addict I had no choice but to use and to think about what I was going to use and where and when I was going to get it.
I would not tell on my disease for anything!! I hid it. I lied for it. I protected it…just like the hostages, I formed a bond with my capture…and would not let anyone or anything near it.
I was so sick that I had no idea that I was sick. My disease – my capture told me I looked great and had me thinking my behavior was completely normal.
The things my disease – my capture told me were beyond manipulative. It groomed me for years and years…one day after another it kept telling me I could use and I was not hurting anybody at all.
In the end it told me “it” was all that I had and nothing else mattered. It told me that I would die without it….that I could not survive one minute on my own.
It had me by the throat and I thanked it.
The only thing I know that is more powerful than that…is god.
Thank you god for pulling me out of that living hell and back to this beautiful earth.