When I was actively using in my addiction, I was seeking comfort and joy in the chemical substance. The “relief” would come…but it was temporary and conditional.
I gave my power to feel good to the drug. I was still a seeker of joy – but I was going the wrong way.
Coming into recovery and shedding some layers of old ideas, negative beliefs and self destructive behaviors…..I have been able to truly find joy in the most natural sense.
I am learning to focus on where “I feel” good.
It is not always easy as the world can be very loud and demanding regarding what makes “them” feel good.
However I have to bring it back to me…and my source of joy.