Yesterday my disease presented me with a wave of fear. I caught it early, spoke to a couple of close people about it and then I accepted it. AND THEN IT WAS GONE!
The fear dissipated almost as fast as it came in.
This is incredible for me because sometimes I ride that ride for days….”Not today Satan.” lol
So, the tools were first the awareness that the dark entity was knocking on the door. I did open the door and let it in….however I did not invite it to stay for coffee.
I then exposed it – I told on it to a couple of trusted people. We shined the light on it with laughter and LOVE.
Then I was still left with it but I used a phrase of acceptance that I have learned which is “I don’t mind.”
The phrase “I don’t mind” allows for anything and everything to take it’s course without resistance. Therefore, allowing the unwanted to leave without me engaging in a super fight with it.
I am so grateful for my recovery and that I do not have to pick up a substance over these uncomfortable emotions.
I am super grateful to the friends that help me shine a light on my craziness as well!