“I don’t mind” 10/12

Yesterday my disease presented me with a wave of fear. I caught it early, spoke to a couple of close people about it and then I accepted it. AND THEN IT WAS GONE!

The fear dissipated almost as fast as it came in.

This is incredible for me because sometimes I ride that ride for days….”Not today Satan.” lol

So, the tools were first the awareness that the dark entity was knocking on the door. I did open the door and let it in….however I did not invite it to stay for coffee.

I then exposed it – I told on it to a couple of trusted people. We shined the light on it with laughter and LOVE.

Then I was still left with it but I used a phrase of acceptance that I have learned which is “I don’t mind.”

The phrase “I don’t mind” allows for anything and everything to take it’s course without resistance. Therefore, allowing the unwanted to leave without me engaging in a super fight with it.

I am so grateful for my recovery and that I do not have to pick up a substance over these uncomfortable emotions.

I am super grateful to the friends that help me shine a light on my craziness as well!

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

7 thoughts on ““I don’t mind” 10/12

      1. I gave up smoking after 35 years of smoking. I believe the addict comes out when you quit. Some of us walk away from any substance abuse (or alcohol abuse) with ease, others will have the fight of their lives on their hands. I wish you strenghts.

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