A difficult conversation 10/14

My son Tyler is soon to be 19. We connect daily, usually at the end of the day he and our two cats Pickles and Snoopy gather on my bed and we chat.

Yesterday he expressed he is having trouble sleeping and we talked of his anxiety.

I asked how bad it was and he said it is getting pretty bad. On a scale of 1-10 daily he said it’s about a 7 or 8.

Tyler never complains.

We spoke about possible solutions and medication was in there. We both talked about using marijuana.

Tyler has never had a drug and he does not drink. But Tyler is not an addict, I am.

This is the part of MY recovery where I have to remember that other people can use chemical substances appropriately…..but I cannot.

Even when it comes to my own son, I have to realize we are different people. If something like a gummy pot candy can help him…I am not at liberty to try and control or prevent it.

I do not want my son to suffer anymore just because his mom is an addict.

This is not easy but I know in my heart it will be ok.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

10 thoughts on “A difficult conversation 10/14

  1. Yeah, I don’t agree with you on this one… but I reserve the right to be wrong. A drug is a drug. Just because they pretty one of them up with gobbledegook fake science, doesn’t make it a medication. Good luck, that’s a tough one.

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  2. I can empathize. My mother was an alcoholic and mentally ill. I inherited her mental illness but resisted taking medication until my 40s. Sometimes I regret it, other times I don’t. Cognitive Behavior Psychotherapy really helped with managing my anxiety and it’s drug free. Good luck to both of you. Be kind to yourself. 💟

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  3. Pennsylvania is a medical marijuana state. Recently I’ve been wondering if micro-dosing for anxiety and tourette symptoms. It seems like such a slippery slope to walk. I take a variety of meds for these issues, but somehow marijuana seems like cheating on my sobriety.

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    1. Hi, thank you for your comment. I am an addict and I cannot take any substance. It is for my son – he is inquiring about it for his anxiety – he is not an addict. But it just creates an uncomfortable feeling for me to have him start using a drug at all.

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