How to get out of hell 1/22

The truth will set you free.

I experienced my own type of hell on earth. This for me was called active addiction.

With drug and alcohol addiction there is an obsession and a compulsion to continue to do things that are harmful to yourself.

This obsession and compulsion cannot be arrested with mere self will.

The first step for me was to acknowledge that I was powerless. This in turn gave me the power that the TRUTH holds.


The second step was also based on an intuitive TRUTH. I had to come to believe that there was a power greater than myself. (myself meaning ego -physical body)


Then the third step was that I had to become willing to allow this power into my life to help me. I had to surrender to it and allow the grace of god to enter.

This relieved the obsession and compulsion to pick up a substance for one day.

Some might say…well one day is not that substantial.

And I say…when you have had that craving, that obsession, that monkey on your back for YEARS…the relief that comes from it being gone for one day is a straight up MIRACLE.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

10 thoughts on “How to get out of hell 1/22

  1. My hell was domestic violence. I saw it as a kind of addiction. I used to argue with DV therapists about this. They said I was a victim, I had “learned helplessness”, all that crap. I didn’t have “learned helplessness”. I wanted to WIN. Just like an addict wants to win over their addiction. There’s no winning. The only way I could win was to walk away. Forever.

    I am at an age now when my body is telling me about how I suffered … because I have such terrible arthritis from all the body trauma I received from the beatings I took. Some days I can barely walk. This morning is one of them.

    But I’m free. I don’t have someone telling me what to do & how to do it. I don’t have to deal with his hangover or mine, either.

    & yes, AA helped me with this. I will not deny that. Without AA, I would not have had the tools to become the free woman I am today.

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    1. That’s the whole surrender to win type of stance. When you realize you are worth more than the pain.
      I believe that anything I stay in that I am constantly thinking about or obsessing about is an addiction- relationships included. When my peace is disrupted it can mean something has gotten out of control. ❤️thank you for your words of experience- much appreciated!!!


  2. One day leads to another, and another, and another and before you know it – you’re on your way. Usually it takes time to accomplish “letting go and letting God”, nothing happens overnight. Whatever it is that you’re trying to let go of – stress, addiction, abusive relationship – it takes one day at a time. It’s not always easy, but one day at a time, is a lot of times, all we can do.

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