I can think what I want 2/3

This is something that I was stunned to realize when I came into recovery.

First I started to see that not everybody thought like I did. And then I learned that people can think and believe how ever they want and that’s ok. Actually…I am not the judge whether it is ok or not.

I also learned that not all of my thoughts were beneficial to me. I was constantly thinking thoughts that were not serving my soul.

When I dropped all of the drugs and booze and was left with this jumbled up confused little girl….my awareness became keener and extremely important.

This morning when I woke up my mind shot a negative thought across my brain screen. I caught it….and I redirected it.

I said to myself “If I can think anything I want, I am not gonna think that one today.”

It’s learning the awareness of where my true power is and that it is always within me.

*******just a side note of what my inappropriate brain said to the unwelcomed thought: “you have no power – you my bitch – beat it.”

Whatever works right?

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

23 thoughts on “I can think what I want 2/3

  1. nope not even at all . drink. think hey i wore a tee at age seven if it feels good do it. would you do that now? would you speak and defend yourself to me again? why would you? why should you? why do i constantly say i disagree? THINK GIRL THINK! TEE HEE


  2. Love it. Your pic for this blog was a sign I was asking for “white Owl”. The chatter in the head can get loud and good for you for noticing these things, some stay stuck and unwilling to be aware.

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  3. I have this tendency, probably because I am getting older, to worry about wrecking things, especially new things. Like blasting the volume on our new TV by mistake… or possibly jarring the muffler on our (very low sitting) car when I went over some icy snow. “I should have done this… I could have done that…” my mind goes. It’s a drag but luckily some other problem usually replaces it. 😁 To me, it seems like I make mistakes but never so much that I can’t get past it. And often it seems like my little mistakes are good warnings to avoid bigger ones. God teaching through trial and error? That’s my positive way of looking at it.

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  4. Thank you so much for this post. I have been in recovery for four years, and have never heard anyone say this. These are the moments that I cherish in my own sober journey — the “A-ha!” of simple sentiments that I’m sometimes just too dense to arrive at on my own… I hope to reference this post in one of my own (and will definitely give proper link-back credit). Brava, Bella! 🤯

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