If I could pick one thread or theme that seems to run through myself and every addict or alcoholic that I have ever encountered it is the feeling of unworthiness.
For myself I did not even know that I felt unworthy. I just kept accepting poor treatment of myself.
Let me rephrase that – I kept treating myself poorly. Even being in recovery for 12 years this is something that I need to be constantly aware of so I can learn and get better.
Who or what in fact am I battling? Well it all begins and ends with me. I actually have to “catch” myself not being kind to me. Whether it is by thought, word or deed.
Catch it and then correct it. It’s like a game.
Today I have to put myself first in all situations because if I don’t I pay a price. Putting myself first does not mean stomping on others to get there. Ha ! It is just the opposite actually.
It means caring enough about myself to get right with my god in the morning, eat well, rest when I need to, frolic in nature, listen to beautiful music, appreciate the flowers, relax, laugh, play when needed and give of myself to friends and loved ones when I am able.
I believe we are all worthy beyond understanding.
I also believe this might be one of the reasons we are here on this planet. To discover and receive the love we truly are.
The daily addict 
Taking care of ourselves, loving ourselves…something that is so easy for us to remember to do for others, but so difficult when it comes to ourself. It should be more instinctive, more natural. Yet we all need that reminder to put ourself first, so we can be the best version of ourself for others. Something I forget so often. Glad you took the time for you.
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Exactly- it’s practicing being mindful of myself and what’s going on with me. Why that is so difficult is beyond meeee ha ha ❤️
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You are so worthy and you are always worth! I can relate to what you said when you wrote you “catch yourself” … yes … we are worthy of kindness to ourselves! I have to remind myself of that, too … it is a truly a balancing act. We are worthy even on those days when life feels so messy! Peace to you! 🕊🤍✨
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Yessss such a balancing act and those days when I don’t like myself much are a bit tougher to handle 💜
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I have same problem from being abused and being the child of an alcoholic. Self care is a never ending full time job for me, and it’s a job I’m not very good at ☹️☹️
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It’s literally taken me years to even see that I was neglecting myself 💜now I just try…we can only try
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You have explained well since if we first take care of ourselves we would be able to take care and be happy around with others too. It is well said one must enjoy ones company.🙏
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That concept was explained to me once regarding why parents are to take the oxygen masks first on a plane….so they can then help the kids. It’s funny because I always thought giving myself to other’s was noble….but not if I don’t have anything to give🤷🏻♀️💜
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Yes thats so true fact, we need to take care of ourselves in order for other people we could take care 😊😊
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It most certainly is dear lady, our journey shows us a conditional love in holding those fears. And it is in seeing the ‘why’ of that fear that we will then understand unconditional love. He gave us something very hard…but in doing so will give us a miracle beyond words ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋
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Yes thank you 💜the awareness for me seems to be a beginning to changing
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It is, you have faced those things that were holding you back and understood them. And in understanding you let yourself go from that fearful ‘on guard’ that fear is…and let yourself open from that place within. More relaxed, more at ease…the walls are crumbling 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋
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You have a gift of getting straight to the heart and truth. Much love!
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Thank you Jackie ❤️💜❤️
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Beautiful Danielle, you are loved, valued, appreciated and we all believe in you. I admire your courage, authenticity, powerful vulnerability and rawness. Thank you. 🙏🏻♥️
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Thank you Amber – the feeling is very mutual 🌈💜🌈
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I agree. I too have treated myself badly in the past, I am trying to do better now, be extra kind to myself and do a lot of self care, xoxo
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Yesss it’s nice to be nice to one’s self – who knew❤️have a good day Carol
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I agree! We must take care of ourselves. We owe it to ourselves and to those we love and care for.
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Absolutely ❤️💜💜
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That’s it in a nutshell, Danielle. And what a wicked learning curve. 😉
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Yes the learning curve – ahhh. Some days are better than others. ❤️💜❤️
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Ain’t that the truth!
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