The other day a lovely person asked me a question in regards to surrendering. She asked if I actually say the words “I surrender.”
I thought this was a great question and it prompted me to take a look at what it actually means to me.
You hear ALL THE TIME in recovery – “Let it go!” “Turn it over!” “Surrender it!” “Give it to God.”
I explained that I do not say the actual words “I surrender.”
For me all it is…is the awareness in the moment that I am trying to control the uncontrollable. How do I know I am doing that….my physical body and mind tell me so. I feel angst and stress about whatever the situation is I am trying to control.
When I have had enough stress and angst in my body…I let the thing go. How do I do that….I switch my focus. I take my attention away from it.
I literally have to “turn the other cheek” – look somewhere else. Switch my attention from the thing that is giving me the stress and focus on something else.
It sounds soo simple. It is not. It takes some faith and trust that whatever the situation, it will work out the way it is suppose to without my hands all up in the mix.
I can honestly say that I have NEVER been disappointed in the way things have turned out when I let it go.
I think of what I am letting go of…the angst, the stress and misery the thing is causing me.
Sometimes I have to surrender it or refocus more than once…but it is the awareness and the love of myself that lets me sit and reside in peace rather than in the shit storm.