In one week from today; Monday May 23rd 2022 (if I don’t pick up a drink/drug) I will have 12 years of sobriety.
In recovery I do try to keep things in the day and not get to far ahead of myself.
However, this is not about that. This week is also the last week that I ever used drugs and alcohol…12 years ago.
This week contains the moments before I surrendered. This week contains the final days that I was in the darkest place of my life.
It is a wonderous place for me to look. How dark and hopeless I felt. I knew nothing of the amazing path that lie ahead for me.
I was a physically, mentally and spiritually beat up woman.
I did not know how to be a daughter, a friend, a mom or even a functioning human being.
Amazing grace literally pulled me out of a dark, deceitful, fearful life into one of love and harmony.
I am still amazed.