As a child with dreams and an astounding imagination becoming an addict was most certainly not on my list of wants or to do’s.
But the thing that my hearts deepest desire held …… led me to become an addict so I could simply and truly understand the connection with a higher power.
Here it is.
I know today with all of my being that I became addicted to drugs and alcohol to find the way out.
If I did not go through the hell on earth…I would not be able to experience the heaven.
If I did not know the pain of numbing myself and condemning this thing called life and everyone in it then I could never really discover it’s beauty.
I had to die to become free. Addiction was my path.
I had to experience first hand the grace and power that an energy – a divine force greater than me that pulled me from the horrors of active addiction.
I had to experience a miracle for me to understand and know….god exists.
I would not change the journey or the path for anything. The lessons are invaluable.