Addiction is a response 6/13

I was listening to Dr. Gabor Mate give his explanation of addiction on a youtube video. Gabor stated that “Addiction is a response to human suffering.”

I understand this perspective.

I have heard it said many times in recovery that the drink and drugs are but symptoms of the disease. So it is like sneezing and a runny nose are just but symptoms of a cold. The root is in the germ or bacteria that caused the cold to begin with.

I will speak from my personal truth. I have realized that I took substances to survive what I could not face. There was some trauma in my childhood that led me to see the world in a bit of a distorted way.

Funny thing is…I never called it trauma or traumatic. But for a child and when I look back now with sober clear eyes…it was very traumatic.

So I went through life unequipped with the knowledge of how to deal with deep emotional problems. Drinking and using drugs were the perfect attempt to escape that suffering.

Today I know that these wounds can be healed. Gods grace guides me there when I am ready and love and forgiveness is where I try to reside.

We are all doing the best we can.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

29 thoughts on “Addiction is a response 6/13

  1. You are so right. Biggest lesson of recovery or trauma recovery (which is often the same thing) is that with God, it is completely healable and life will be amazing on this side of it.😃❤️

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  2. The one thing I always see in a heart is this…an experience of much, much pain…and one’s ability to cope with it. Always begun in childhood…but how can anyone judge a child by their handling capacity to something so traumatic. And it stays with that impact on into adulthood, we do not grow from it until we understand it, and its main effect isn’t usually understood until much, much later in life. It has purpose, a very great purpose. Love is built on empathy and compassion from facing those many terrors in our lives…and if neither can be given then others full of judgement need to go back to their own terror and build their own. Judgement is usually a sign that they still haven’t dared to look within themselves. You dared to kind lady, and the love just grows and grows ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋

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    1. I honestly did not realize that there was trauma until I started emailing you about my child hood. I thought I was past it. But then to look again and understand- I can never thank you enough 🙏❤️🙏

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      1. Thank you Danielle, it is a gift of love given me by God dear lady. It was given to me unconditionally, and always waiting within us all to find, to which I now pass on in guidance so that others may find it too. And that pain within us all can and does become hidden in that childhood because it is so traumatic. Then a life of living in its fear until we dare to look within, but in the meantime we build that love and empathy in our many experiences until that one core fear within us is finally seen and understood. And in that one moment we see our whole path and its steps and understand they are all needed so that we can see…and finally be free by releasing those bonds of fear and become that love and happiness we have always sought. Oh, did I mention the birth of that smile within, the one that is no longer held by those fears but now given freely with the unconditional love that you found? 🤣 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋

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  3. Absolutely. Some of us go through so much trauma that it seems impossible to deal with without the ‘aid’ of something unhealthy in our lives. I’m so proud of you for recognising that yes, you have experienced trauma, that it probably strongly affected the choices you felt you had to make…and that we’re all human – we all fail sometimes. We all make mistakes. The best part is learning from it and doing better next time. Big hug xx

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  4. Addictions are but a band aid – truth is the cure… It takes God’s grace to face the trauma we hid from ourselves. I have had memories come which happened 35 years ago that I had “forgotten”.
    I was 48 years old before I realized I was still looking for a father. The realization of this made me more determined that my own children would not have such a need.

    Life begins when our own brokenness produces the grace of God to help others.
    BT

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    1. I have been in recovery since I was 35 – I am now 47 and this year I discovered and uncovered such great pain from my childhood – and I was ready and able to face it with gods grace 💜 Thank you Brian!

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      1. The journey is obvious and so is your growth… I lived on the streets from when I was 13 and a drug addict and alcoholic until I was 20… I am now 68 and my journey is still new every day.

        One night at 2:00AM Jesus walked into my room… never been the same. Not preaching just sharing my incredible encounter.

        Keep on!
        BT

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      2. Ha! I wouldn’t say you were preaching- I would say in a funny way you were bragging! Jesus didn’t come to my room! But yet I didn’t invite him either 💜
        Not to make light of your spiritual experience- that actually sounds incredible! I love hearing and learning what others have felt and witnessed. Would you ever be open to possibly an interview post? We could do it three email – I keep my posts pretty short but yours sounds like an amazing story I might like to highlight. If you are interested please let me know- my email is : gracefulrecovery@thedailyaddict.com

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