My cat Pickles was put to rest in our home yesterday morning. The woman who came and helped was amazing. Pickles was amazing during the process and I was able to connect with the beauty of it all.
Thank you to everyone who reached out with your loving and kind words. I appreciate it so very much.
My son is experiencing this completely differently and I unfortunately cannot help him. I am here watching him in pain. I feel somehow inadequate. I also do not understand the way he is feeling.
I noticed that I have been trying to suppress my feelings. A sad feeling will come up and I want to push it away. My son is diving so far into the grief and I simply do not want to go there.
I keep saying to myself : “I don’t know how to do this.” And then I say to myself – “Why do you need know how to do anything?”
I am exhausted. I am sad. I am hopeful that life is showing me things that I have never experienced but need to.
A few hours after Pickles passed away my best friend texted me that her grandson Mason Rome was born. He was not expected to come on that day but he did. God showed me once again – all is well Danielle.