I just don’t care 7/30

Sometimes when life has had it’s way with me…the phrase “I just don’t care” or “whatever” are actually very helpful.

These phrases are a form of surrender. It basically says I give up.

And then the grace of god is allowed to work it’s magic.

When I am in a state of struggle, trying to control and manipulate the world to suit my needs…I am allowing nothing except pain in my brain.

When I give up – when I say “whatever” I detach from any outcome that I might be holding on to.

True surrender and letting go of my brilliant ideas…is freedom. Freedom to just be and feel pleasantly alright in this world.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

28 thoughts on “I just don’t care 7/30

  1. Sometimes my husband, who is also in recovery, will say, “I guess I have to just not care!” but he says it so aggressively. I’ve always reacted negatively, feeling no love or healthy surrender in it but kind of a cold shutting down. Recently I realized that maybe that is his way of letting go, he just does it more forcefully than I do. That line of not caring, with love, is so tricky to walk…

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    1. Your absolutely right …it is a fine line between not caring and letting go💜When I first entered into recovery I was convinced so many old timers were cold hearted. It could not have been further from the truth. They have acceptance and appreciation for life the way it exactly is….I am not there yet but it’s something I seek. It’s my way to surrender at this point.
      Thank you for sharing your thoughts ❤️❤️much appreciated
      I think it might prompt a future post if you don’t mind.

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  2. this is my ‘whatever’ — “Perpetual quietness of heart. It is to have no trouble. It is never to be fretted or vexed, irritable or sore: to wonder at nothing that is done to me, to feel nothing against me. It is to be at rest when nobody praises me, and when I am blamed or despised, it is to have a blessed home in myself where I can go in and shut the door and kneel to my Father in secret and in peace, as in a deep sea of calmness, when all around and about is seeming trouble.” ~ Dr. Bob and the Good Oldtimers, page 222. ❤

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  3. Fron where did we even first begin to think we were in control? Your post makes complete and easy sense, but I know I fight for control often. I even tell myself that it’s “okay” to do so because the control I want it to make things better for other people (that’s my conscious reason) – I just realized that making it better for other people makes it better for me (that’s my subconscious reason). I just learned a valuable lesson from you!

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  4. I’ve said that a lot over the past two years as the insanity intensifies. It just blasts so far out of my reality my mind just can’t make sense of a lot of things anymore. But…I always seem to stay the course. These are definitely challenging times and require more than usual perseverance. God must definitely be giving a helping hand or we wouldn’t still be here fighting for our freedom…Blessings…VK <3.

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  5. There is a sweet surrender that lies just beyond that last attempt to cling to the illusion of control. That last step is so difficult. Our flesh fights the letting go with all its might. Yet, I know that grace is waiting in that sacred place. Thank you for this beautiful reminder that releasing to God’s “whatever” is infinitely better than whatever I am clinging to.

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