Drugs? To get off of drugs? 9/19

This is not a judgment against anyone who is currently using methadone or suboxone. My intention is not to offend or change the way you think. This is simply my experience and my opinion on this topic.

At a recovery meeting the other day a gentlemen disclosed he had been on suboxone for 14 years. He was now receiving monthly injections of the drug rather than the wafer/pill form.

At the end of his share he was expressing how desperately he was trying to get off of the suboxone. He also exclaimed that if you don’t have to go on it…don’t. He found it very hard to get off of…just like his former drug of choice.

Before I used pills I drank a lot. I was a bartender…it became a craft. There are many forms of alcohol that are less in content than another.

If I wanted to “try” and maintain some dignity and not get completely wasted…I would choose a wine over a tequila. (you still can get drunk on both & I always did)

I am getting this same feeling regarding choosing suboxone over oxycodone and heroin.

Personally…I know the only thing that removes the obsession to use any of it – is the power greater than me…the unspeakable energy that loves unconditionally.

I seek that power to arrest the obsession….and then thank it when it works.

I cannot use an outside substance to cure an inside issue.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

16 thoughts on “Drugs? To get off of drugs? 9/19

  1. There is a man named Bob who was in the band Thelonius Monk back in the 90’s. He is now an addiction counselor for musicians after years of hard addiction and then recovery himself. In the biographical movie of his life he is quoted as saying that he recommends people get off suboxone and back on heroin THEN come to him BECAUSE it is EASIER to get off the heroin than suboxone. Of course he is just making a point but it is an awakening.

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  2. Well worded and well written, Grace. Important for people to know, the drug of choice isn’t the issue, as much as the filling of a void. So, substituting Suboxone for Heroin is a temporary fix. Glad you’re still ok, Grace. Keep up the good work. (Side note—totally unimportant. You were right, and I was wrong. Pats beat the Steelers yesterday. Congrats!). 😉

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