After I acted Selfishly 9/24

On my way home after I acted selfishly 9/23 I was supposed to meet my friend Bootsie at a recovery meeting. It had been a tentative plan since the weekend and now I really needed one.

All I wanted to do was sit my sorry ass in a meeting and listen.

“We plan … god laughs.”

I text Bootsie; I ask him if we are still meeting at the recovery center at 7pm. He says “no we are going to the local detox to share.” Meaning we would sit on a stage in front of lots of people and speak.

Now everything in me did NOT WANT to do this. BUT…I have a trust in my higher power (after many many times of trusting it) to just go and do what is being put in front of me…especially in these types of situations.

Of course my brain starts to twist and turn, plot and scheme in every way trying to get out of it. I ask him “how many people are going?” Thinking if it were a lot then I am heading towards my couch. He says “2”.

What’s funny is..he lied! When I got to the detox there were 5 of us.

Point is this…after having a tough day learning out there…god brought me back. He brought me back to see where I was 12 years ago.

He presented me with the opportunity to appreciate where I am today and help others who are not so fortunate.

I felt safe and unbelievably loved.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

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