Check yourself Danielle 9/28

The other day I found myself reverting back to some old behaviors.

When I say old behavior I relate them to the way my disease – the disease of addiction – can and will tempt or talk me into some type of destructive thoughts or even actions.

There are a variety of ways my mind manipulates me into walking into a neighborhood where I personally do not belong.

Now you would think that my disease would just tell me to pick up a drink or drug.

But it doesn’t.

It tells me to pick up an old toxic relationship, pick up some new insecurity about my body or the way others view me. It tells me to pick up some financial insecurity, some parental failure thoughts or some “nobody gives a shit” thoughts too.

My mind becomes sick all over again.

The disease sets up the mind…without even a thought of a drink or drug….but that is what will follow if I do not correct it.

Thank god for god as my friend Chooch says.

God is in my gut. When I am off and I start wandering down a path that is not meant for me…I can feel it.

When I am thinking or acting in a way that does not serve my soul -I feel it strongly in my gut.

This feeling stays until I can find my way back home to gods grace.

This is a beautiful thing. Learning to listen to the grace of god – nothing is better than that for me.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

19 thoughts on “Check yourself Danielle 9/28

  1. The art of perception, to ‘know’ something that tunes itself to just who you are. Like wild, lovable kittens about to trash you by running over your head a 3am in the morning. You’ll reach a place that you will ‘know’ it is about to happen, even to wake you up ‘just before’ the event. In fact it is in those early hours of the morning that our connection to Gods spirit shares itself beautifully 😀❤️🙏🏽

    Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: