A perfect day 10/2

Today I woke up happy.

A few months ago I had been waking up with my fists clenched. So today I really noticed the difference. I woke up comfortable and happy.

I had the best day planned! It was going to rain all day and I was going to do nothing but put up my new shower curtain. (I needed the new shower curtain because our new kitten Eve has destroyed the other one.)

Ahhhh a day of nothing!

Until a text comes through. Those damn phones have got to go!

The text was from a loving soul in recovery named Shari. She does tons of service work for the zoom meeting that I attend frequently. She asked if I would be the guest speaker at 5pm.

Well well. I knew I wasn’t going anywhere and that I would be home all day and night..but I still asked her if I could get back to her in a few hours.

Why did I do that?

I ended up texting her back within 10 minutes and told on myself! Ha ha! I told her my ass was going nowhere all day and I would be honored to share at the meeting.

It is 3pm right now and I will speak in 2 hours in front of close to 200 people on zoom. The fact that anybody would ask me to share my story is still humbling.

But the most important thing that I have to remember is that this is not about ME. This is about the person who might be listening who hears something that helps them to stay clean for another minute.

This is about the person who has clean time but might be ready to use today. It is for the person who doesn’t believe it can work for them.

This is about me sharing how I can stay clean with god…and not with my own self will.

This is about something greater than me…asking me to share…something greater than me.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

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