A common thread 11/16

Something that I have learned by being in recovery is that each addicts experiences might have been different…but the feelings that connect us are all the same.

The feelings of desperation and shame that the active addict feels to get more drugs and hide themselves from the world seems to be a common thread.

Because of that common thread if someone has chosen to sell their body or if they are homeless…I understand the why behind it.

The feelings that led me to use drugs and alcohol are the same ones that keep others in the active addiction.

These feelings always seem to be one of not feeling worthy and not feeling good enough in some area.

The feelings of rejection, guilt, disappointment, expectations, unfulfilled desires and dreams.

Fear.

I can pick up heroin over it or I can pick up a piece of chocolate cake…the action of suppressing those feelings does not lead me to the freedom I seek.

Today I am learning to not push down those uncomfortable feelings…but let them pass through.

I have learned that those sucky feelings are actually guiding me to the freedom I desire and that I truly am.

Today I am free no matter what I am feeling.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

22 thoughts on “A common thread 11/16

    1. Hi granny….unfortunately we have lost track of her. I spoke with my friend this morning-and we are hoping she is in a detox but we don’t have any details at this point.
      I’m sad to say this is common in the world of addiction. Only 1 out of 36 actually make it 😢but we try

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  1. Thank you Danielle. We’re everyone as transparent the ‘secret’ addictions the enemy delights in using to stoke our self hatred, guilt, failure and fear of rejection would be defeated by your inspirational claim of Grace . . . “Today I am free no matter what I am feeling”.

    2,000 years ago Jesus took all the the shame, guilt, failure, and rejection of every sin addiction each of experiences and forever
    buried them in Grace’s forgiveness . . . forever free regardless of the enemy’s fearful feeling lies of hopeless bondage.

    Be blessed!

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  2. right… if you numb the pain, you also numb the joy. it took me a long time to realize that numbing the pain was keeping me stuck in the pain (an unfeeling blob of nothingness). sitting with uncomfortable feelings gets easier with practice. and pretty soon there’s sunshine, and running shoes, and laughter. go grab some! ❤

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