So I had a moment over the weekend – and I wasn’t sure I was going to share it…but here it goes.
I had what I call an absolute unnecessary “shit fit” or as some can refer to them as a “mind attack”.
I was out walking on a cold but beautiful Sunday morning and I saw my hawk friend. Then I saw something so odd…that made me feel a little crazy…but I really saw it.
The hawk was perched in a tree and his back was towards me. What I saw was a very distinct face in his feathers. I don’t know whose face it was but it was definitely a face.
So I grabbed my phone and I tried to get pictures but they did not come out.
Then I tried texting one of my friends – who would not think I was nuts. But they didn’t answer (right away) ha – so I called them…again no answer.
Then I just start obsessing over “why” they are not answering me. My hearts racing I am anxious and I am calling and calling and texting…obnoxiously.
The whole ordeal maybe lasted 20 minutes…but I was in a mental hell.
The friend calls me back…we chat..I don’t run from my craziness. I cry – it passes and then I laugh.
I end up later in the day receiving an image – an ariel view of myself walking around around the golf course – mid mind attack.
I can see myself – and I just laugh like a real belly laugh.
All of that fear and turmoil are just nonsense…but it’s my nonsense.