I’m gonna die 2/27

This is not new news. I will die. This physical apparatus will be no more some day. The ending is none of my business. Neither was the beginning really.

But the middle…the journey, the story the creation of me finding my way – I believe I have some say in.

How I will live today…in this very day – is everything.

I have been given a second chance to live this life in this body.

I abused this body and all that surrounded it for many years. And then it stopped. The love of gods grace allowed me to see the pain in my sons eyes…and I was given the will to say that’s enough at the age of 35.

Since then…the almost 13 years of navigating this life sober and connecting to a higher energy daily…is such grace. I did not know life could be so good.

Call it chapter 2.

I learn everyday that it’s all about the love of self.

I understand today that chapter 1 – was very necessary to live in chapter 2.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

31 thoughts on “I’m gonna die 2/27

  1. What a precious truth. Wise beyond your years. Chapter 1 did not give that, God gave that when you accepted His grace and love. Wisdom to get to chapter 2 stems from that. At least it did for my chapter 2. You are so inspirational! Thank you for writing!😃❤️

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  2. Beautifully profound words kind lady. One cannot be known without the other. And because of chapter 1 you will now truly appreciate chapter 2 so much more because of it. A great share Danielle, thank you ❤️🙏🏽

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  3. Bela Bartok, the great Hungarian composer, wanted to leave life with an “empty trunk,” having used up his capacity for living and creating great music. Marcus Aurelius wished daily reminders of his mortality. Your valuing of the time you have, Danielle, puts you in good company.

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  4. Oh, Danielle…I am so glad that you have a chapter 2 in this life. You touch lives with your story. People who need to hear about both of your chapters. You give people strength and encouragement and even hope. Your writing is eloquent. You are a blessing. ♥️

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    1. Thank you Andi – I think we all have chapters of value to share. I always find it so ironic that I have a disease that the only solution or cure I know is to go to god. It’s purely a spiritual solution…or die. Crazy…but a gift at the same time. Thank you for your encouragement and love.

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      1. Yes, I agree. We all have something to share. I’ve been told that I need to write a book about my life. There’s just so much to write about my life and too many names would have to be changed! Lol

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      1. Ok. If I could, in this life, achieve confidence about what awaits me in the afterlife, the security thus obtained would deface the true character of this life, which is trial. This confidence would be overconfidence, presumption. I would be seeking security in this world through confidence from beyond, confusing the means and the ends. The faithful greet each other with “God bless you,” “May God bless you”; how would it look like if one replied: “I don’t need these words because I know.” We cannot know with absolute certainty what awaits us on judgment’s day, for we may be blinded by our sins, and this is what makes us fear death, namely, the afterlife.

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      2. I hear you…but knowing the eternal nature of my being has only made me more compassionate and kind during this time that I am in a physical form.
        Don’t get me wrong…I went through hell on earth to reach my spiritual understanding- when one is aligned with the true eternal nature of their spirit – there is no sin happening ❤️❤️🙏


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