An unbearable moment 3/5

I was listening to Steve Harvey speak about stress. He stated that “stress is my preparation” and I couldn’t agree more.

It brought me back to a moment in time where I thought I could not handle.

This moment was when I was in rehab over 12 years ago and my son came to visit me.

My son was about 7 years old at the time and I had not seen him for at least 2 weeks – it was the most time we had ever been apart.

It was a Sunday – visiting day. He came into the dining hall and we hugged. He was very happy to see that my face was healing. I previously had two black eyes and one eye was blood filled.

I was starting to look human again.

I knelt in front of my son and I was looking in his eyes and he said “Mom, I’m tired and I just want to go home” he had been staying with different family members.

And I looked at him with tears and said “I know bud…me too.”

When he left the facility I watched him through a window; he was walking out into the parking lot getting into the car with my x husband.

That moment was excruciating….I wanted to run after him sooooo badly I cannot even describe it. I was sober and I wanted to LEAVE and go get my son.

I sobbed and cried and my room mate saved my life that day. She also had children.

She told me and I miraculously heard it: “Danielle – do this NOW so you never have to do it again.”

I stayed and completed rehab.

Amazing grace.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

22 thoughts on “An unbearable moment 3/5

    1. Ahh granny – I went home from the rehab about 2 weeks after that. It felt like a year – but it was only 2 weeks. He and I have been together every day (aside short vacations) ever since. He is now 20.


  1. “Danielle – do this NOW so you never have to do it again.” It is in our “doing” in the now that the future becomes bright… keep writing the new chapters of your life! 🙂

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