An unbearable moment 3/5

I was listening to Steve Harvey speak about stress. He stated that “stress is my preparation” and I couldn’t agree more.

It brought me back to a moment in time where I thought I could not handle.

This moment was when I was in rehab over 12 years ago and my son came to visit me.

My son was about 7 years old at the time and I had not seen him for at least 2 weeks – it was the most time we had ever been apart.

It was a Sunday – visiting day. He came into the dining hall and we hugged. He was very happy to see that my face was healing. I previously had two black eyes and one eye was blood filled.

I was starting to look human again.

I knelt in front of my son and I was looking in his eyes and he said “Mom, I’m tired and I just want to go home” he had been staying with different family members.

And I looked at him with tears and said “I know bud…me too.”

When he left the facility I watched him through a window; he was walking out into the parking lot getting into the car with my x husband.

That moment was excruciating….I wanted to run after him sooooo badly I cannot even describe it. I was sober and I wanted to LEAVE and go get my son.

I sobbed and cried and my room mate saved my life that day. She also had children.

She told me and I miraculously heard it: “Danielle – do this NOW so you never have to do it again.”

I stayed and completed rehab.

Amazing grace.