To change is to create 3/14

I have become aware of some patterns in my life that I would like to change. Fortunately I am in recovery and I know change is possible.

The first step is the awareness of the behavior that does not serve me any longer. Today the behavior for me is a lack of trust for others and an unworthiness feeling in myself.

Maybe I don’t trust myself…

That sounds about right.

I have heard this phrase time and time again in recovery: “If you continue to do what you have always done you will continue to get what you have always gotten.”

Time to create a new version of myself. This version will trust and feel worthiness beyond my wildest dreams.

I am smiling as I write this…yay!

I understand that I have been conditioned in many ways for many years to believe certain things that – I frankly no longer want to believe.

So I will catch myself, and those OLD thoughts…and I will place my focus on creating the version of me that can and will exist in the future.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

28 thoughts on “To change is to create 3/14

  1. We have all our lives conditioned ourselves in that doubt of us…unknowingly…but ever afraid to believe that what we think is true…until we see the lie that it is. And when we do we will open our hearts back up…and be free. Beautiful post dear lady, smile deeply in that understanding you have found…and in the fact that your heart is now wide open 😀❤️🙏🏽

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    1. It’s like opening another door ❤️I feel like the simplicity of it – is just kind of funny. I get to decide who and what I want to be…when I realize how free I always have been. But I didn’t know it…and now I’m learning and EXPERIENCING it ❤️❤️❤️ahhhhh

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    1. Kev you’re the best – thank you for that acknowledgment 🙏❤️and you can do whatever it is you like and choose – infinite possibilities on this planet my friend♥️

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      1. Just over at 13″, but it is still snowing, so who knows what we’ll end up with. Shoveling was a bear and my poor shrubs are paying a ‘heavy’ price. 😦 Oh, well, it is what it is!

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  2. I’ve read your posts just a few times, Danielle, but having read this one, I would like to continue to follow your journey. I was an addict, too, and have been to AA and a place called Open Road in my town. I’ve now been clean and sober for over ten years. I never take it for granted, though.

    I’m so glad you’ve found yourself in a place where you’re ready to let a new and better life in. I am doing exactly the same thing at the moment. After very many years (even a lifetime) of being so low and miserable with poor mental health, I am now also ‘finding’ myself, have broken up with my guilt and am looking forward to being the person I should have been years ago. I guess it’s all been a learning curve. I have written about these things recently, too, so I appreciate how you want to do similar. I, too, was conditioned into thinking I was unworthy and felt nothing but negative thoughts about myself. No longer, though. I wish you so much success and love as you travel the route of your new life. X 💐💕

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    1. That’s the hugest compliment daisy…if I can bring anything to anyone it would be one of comfort! And the smile is the bonus.
      Regarding comparison – I think it was Theodore Roosevelt said “Comparison is the thief of joy.”
      Now we don’t want anything stealing our joy!!!

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