Last night 3/17

While I was at work I received a phone message from a fellow addict named Jimmy. He was in a pinch and needed speakers to share at the local detox.

I remembered that morning that I literally handed everything over to god – my higher power – and said bring me what you will.

And then hours later I was sitting on a stage in front of at least 50 – 60 other addicts who were in detox.

I was there almost 13 years ago.

The energy in the room just kept getting brighter. There was laughter. For that hour some of those addicts HEARD us share how we got out of hell on earth.

Something surprised me at the end of the meeting.

Many people came up to us and thanked us which they often do. There are hugs of just hope and support.

And then I turned and looked and saw the last few addicts file out the door… and then the room was empty.

The room was empty…and I started to cry.

I am not sure if I can explain it…but when they were with us in that room we were all safe. And then they left…and the chances that any of them will survive…are almost non existent.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

23 thoughts on “Last night 3/17

  1. You may be surprised kind lady, you showed them that there was hope…always hope. You gave them your heart, so that they could feel theirs. Find something that seemed lost, but now found. That power seeks their redemption from a world that held them in darkness, just by you being there…and that light they could see within you. Maybe it was just a reminder in where you once were, that nowhere we feel at times in our live and since your empathy has grown so strong…you touched it again with so many in the room. But they too will have felt yours and touched that hope that you have found in you, courage to take another step, and even feel a little love for what can be. Take a bow Danielle, it may feel like your light feels a little less…but they most certainly would feel a little lighter in that unconditional love you gave them 😀❤️🙏🏽

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    1. It was a mixture of all of what you said…I wrote about it for tomorrow too – it was a connection that I had for others that came through me so strongly-like never before. I forgot me…which was a tremendous shift -my experience knows the battles and my heart just felt for them all as they left. ❤️🙏❤️

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      1. Unconditional love dear lady, it was all in touching them. The first time I touched it, it felt so strange simply because I hadn’t touched it without my wall, and so strongly before. You have opened to it…so it spoke 😀❤️🙏🏽

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  2. I may have cried like you. I feel your compassion. But please do not underestimate the power of your words. You have touched many by what you write here. I can only imagine what it would be to sit in your presence and hear you speak from your heart. ♥️

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  3. Seeds of victory go farther than we realize… there may be lapses and dark times but never underestimate the power resident in the seeds of hope… keep sowing hope

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  4. “And then they left…and the chances that any of them will survive…are almost non existent.”

    Danielle … by God’s grace you were once where those 50-60 addicts were and survived. Only God knows how He will use what you shared with them to reduce those “non existent” odds the enemy wants us to believe are insurmountable.

    Keep on sharing, do your best, and leave the rest for Him to accomplish as He did in your life lady. Be blessed!

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    1. Thank you Fred – I believe my tears came from a new place within. It was the one where I had more empathy and love for other…rather than me being self centered and wanting to go home and get in my pajamas- I post about it tomorrow. I think it’s more growth. I won’t give up on the addict who still suffers because what would have become of me if people stopped sharing their truth. You are absolutely correct ❤️


  5. Hold on to and share your hope. It is contageous. You don’t know your impact and fear has no ground to stand within you now. Do what you can and then let God work. Your job is to love as you have loved. The results are not your responsibility. Good job for doing your part and caring for them. Pray for them and more may make it than you think. We did. 😃❤️

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  6. i felt like drinking yesterday (or was it the day before that?) … and my mind instantly went to you, and your messages of love. i was safe. even tho we weren’t sharing the same room. love, daisy

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