The gift of a shift 3/18

I realized a few things from yesterdays post Last night 3/17 .

I have spoken at a detox enough times that I should be used to it.

But as I explained in my post yesterday…what surprised me was my emotion and sadness when the 50-60 addicts left the room…and I cried.

I realized today why I felt this way. I was not focused on ME. I was focused on them.

In the past I have been worried how I might of sounded, or relieved that it was over and I could go home…to my safe haven where nobody is staring at me.

But this last time…I forgot about me…and wanted to chase after them.

This is growth. I’m connecting outside of me – through me and gods will.

I have learned in my recovery that self centered fear is what drives the addict to use.

I was not fearful and I was not self centered that night. It was the opposite.

This is a nice shift.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

24 thoughts on “The gift of a shift 3/18

  1. Beautiful!!! It is always our hardest bad habit to not revisit- that of thinking too highly of ourselves than we ought and not considering others as greater than ourselves, mraning being humble as seeing others just as worthy as we are to receive God’s love. It is a good reminder. (Romans 12). It is beautiful! 😃❤️ Did you like the Chosen?

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  2. “What we really have is a daily reprieve (from our alcoholic or addict behaviors) contingent on the maintenance of our spiritual condition.” Your shared experience is letting us know you are doing all the right things. I personally notice when I stop going to recovery meetings, stop meditation, stop trying to help the next person suffering from their addiction that all my selfishness comes back. I start to worry about me again. I have taken my will back. All my -ism’s return. I feel best when I am of service, to others like me. That’s when I feel most that I’ve blessed with a gift. It’s been shown to me way too many times to count. Keep keeping on. Be well.

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