I still do it 5/24

Yesterdays post 13 Years ago today 5/23 has a picture of me all sorts of beat up. It was taken days before I entered into treatment for alcohol and drug addiction.

When I look at the photos…I am amazed at how much I beat myself up.

And even though physically I am not allowing bumps and bruises to be seen all over my face and body…I still beat myself up mentally and emotionally on a daily basis.

One thing a friend pointed out to me the other day is that I do not allow others to be unkind to me for more than a hot minute. But yet…I am still being mean to myself.

This is where I learn. This is where I look at my own behavior and once again say “enough”.

There is no need to be unkind to myself. I am a work in progress and I am here to love. And that’s it- to love me and to love you.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

24 thoughts on “I still do it 5/24

  1. This is a powerful journey we are on kind lady. And to understand it we must first see what conditional love is by being buried in our fears and those many negativities we hold. But as time goes by our experiences begin to show us truly that what we hold is a lie, we see that our hearts are twisted and want us to go beyond it all in that search for love and happiness. And slowly we begin to see that their is much light all around us, as we dare to go beyond what was. Happy to see that light in your eyes kind lady, that inner glow that self love is 😀❤️🙏

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  2. It’s my belief that many of us hold ourselves to higher expectations than we do of anyone else we know! In addition, I believe that many of us forgive others so much more easily than we are able to forgive ourselves. I have no advice – I still haven’t gotten over this mountain myself. But keep trying!

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  3. Are you wishing you didn’t post the picture? Oh … I don’t know. I didn’t think anything negative about it. I just felt a little sad for you … 13 whatever years ago … then relieved to see the current you and to know what you’ve been through and how accomplished you are.

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    1. Hi Steven 🙏💕 No I am fine with showing that picture it’s an important part of my process. What I realized though is I still beat myself up – mentally and emotionally (just about every day life things) but you can’t see those bruises 💕🙏 I want to treat myself a bit better is all ♥️hope you are well my friend🙏

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      1. Ahh… you are a wise lady! And you always make the world brighter. Reflective … you are!!! Have a great day and I look forward to your continued blessings!!!

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