It’s bringing me back 6/1

Today is Wednesday morning 6:09am. At 7:15am I will be bringing my son Tyler to his first day of out patient treatment at a mental health facility. This is bringing me right back to where I once was. I keep thinking about my own mother and how she must of felt when I was broken

Not sure who 5/31

I am not sure who needs to hear this message today…but I have a strong feeling that someone does. If it is you…I understand. If it is a friend of yours that might be struggling…maybe call them or hug them if you can. I have lived in a state of survival mode most of my

“Light and Lively” 5/30

Today I woke up…NOT with fists clenched….but really grateful. The outside world might look a bit messy…but my insides are calm and free feeling. When I first met my sponsor Bootsie – he would call me “light and lively.” I couldn’t see it then…but I feel it today. Today I feel like engaging with people,

The courage of another 5/29

This is about my son Tyler. He is 20 years old and has been battling some severe depression, anxiety and PTSD. When Tyler was only 6 years old he lost…he lost many things that were once stable in his life. His father and I divorced, his grandmother Boogie Nanna died suddenly, our kitten Kissy passed

My brains CEO 5/28

The topic at Friday nights recovery meeting was regarding a higher power. The discussion was great. People shared all the different ways they came to believe in something greater than themselves. Some discussed the struggle that they still have defining it and even finding it. Some find it in nature in music or in the

The effect we have 5/27

Comedian Jim Carey gave a very memorable Commencement Speech at MIU in 2014. I have listened to it more times than I can count. There is one thing specifically that he says that just rings true through my whole body and always gives me some humility and tears of grace. He states : “The effect

Belonging to yourself 5/26

Being in recovery has allowed me to experience the true sense of belonging. This is belonging to something bigger than me…yet at the same time being able to be me. Some times in this life I have become part of certain social, political and even religious groups. This is where like minded thinking and sometimes

The friendly forest 5/25

Clay (my 5 year old charge) and myself went on a walk in a new area on Tuesday. He brought his bike and is so proud because he no longer needs training wheels. We found a pond and a trail through the woods. Clay practiced riding off road and I walked behind him. We approached

I still do it 5/24

Yesterdays post 13 Years ago today 5/23 has a picture of me all sorts of beat up. It was taken days before I entered into treatment for alcohol and drug addiction. When I look at the photos…I am amazed at how much I beat myself up. And even though physically I am not allowing bumps and

13 Years ago today 5/23

Today is the day that the Grace of God entered my life…and I accepted it – 5/23/2010. This picture was taken by my mom days before I entered into treatment for my drug and alcohol addiction. The moment in time where I said “enough” was me stumbling on my front lawn trying to get my