Keep it real Danielle 6/17

Today I felt irritated. It is real and it is where I was today. Not all day. At the end of the day the mom of the boys that I nanny for was 10 minutes late relieving me so I could go home. Now…I know 10 minutes is nothing and believe me I wish it

My gut 6/16

“Listen to your gut” they say. For me a lot of times this means ignoring what the other prominent players in my life are saying and truly listening to myself. When I first got clean I had no idea how to listen to my gut or what that even was. But over time and after

Blessed to be a mess 6/15

I was sitting with a friend in recovery yesterday and we were chatting about the beautiful messes that we have become. We were happy for the awareness of the things that disturb us. We are happy that we keep uncovering these little nuggets of freedom. There are some people in recovery that I have encountered

God – a loaded word 6/14

God is one of those words that seem to ignite some type of feeling or reaction in many people. It’s a loaded word…loaded with different meanings to so many. When I entered into recovery I was taught to be flexible in my thinking. The exact words were to be open minded. I was introduced to

Addiction is a response 6/13

I was listening to Dr. Gabor Mate give his explanation of addiction on a youtube video. Gabor stated that “Addiction is a response to human suffering.” I understand this perspective. I have heard it said many times in recovery that the drink and drugs are but symptoms of the disease. So it is like sneezing

We only have today 6/12

My son Tyler is 19 years old. He has a diagnosis of autism. This means that he communicates in a different manner. His focus is unbelievably strong and his heart is as pure as they come. He has refused to see the sickness in our cat Pickles who has a cancer diagnosis. Up until this

Hello Dolly! 6/11

This week has been a shit storm of emotions. I want to be alone A LOT. My patience is very thin. I can cry over nothing. I keep seeking relief from the grief that I am processing with my cat Pickles and he’s not even passed yet. Rather than in a drink or drug the

A spirit experience 6/10

I was witness to something years ago that I believe was a spirit experience. Yes spiritual but I believe it was me seeing a part of someone’s spirit. It was during my first year of recovery so over 10 years ago. I became very close with my friend Bootsie at this time. When I was

Cool Experiment 6/9

I found this story on the internet and I apologize for not knowing the original author. But I felt it was very inspirational and I had to share it. A violinist played for 45 minutes in a New York subway. A handful of people stopped, a couple clapped and the violinist managed to raise about

The Powerless 6/8

My friend Bootsie who has over 30 years in recovery often says at meetings “I took the drugs and then the drugs took me.” This is a reminder of the powerlessness that exists in the world of addiction. It is the truth that if I take one…it will take me to places that I do