Calling for help 1/1

A woman named Gina was sharing on a recovery zoom meeting last night. Her face was blocked out but you could hear her crying. She was 6 months sober but she did something that she was ashamed of. Gina reached out to her dealer….just to say hi.

Well, we know that it was the prelude of other encounters to come. It was a set up. The disease in her mind told her it was ok to just say “hi” to the dealer. At least she was telling on herself at the meeting. She has a chance to shed some light on the dark, cunning disease.

What I heard her say during her share was that she had only been talking to one other person in recovery that was clean. Her network was very small. Non existent really. She said she had other recovering women’s phone numbers but she never used them and now it was very uncomfortable to call.

I could not be clean today without the other recovering addicts in my life. When you are new in recovery (say 6 months like Gina) you think that your ass will never be on fire….until it is.

As I was taught “You cannot save your face and your ass at the same time.”

I had to make those uncomfortable phone calls. I had to ask for help. I still do to this day and I will until I am floating around as an angel in the sky.

I think gods grace showed me how to level my pride. To become vulnerable and to allow others to work their magic in my life. Which in turn also helps them.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

21 thoughts on “Calling for help 1/1

    1. Yes she was definitely suffering- early recovery is sooooo difficult because everything you think you know is the opposite 🤷🏻‍♀️so asking for help was counter intuitive. Personally I had no idea what humility even was – and I was so unbelievably prideful ( not in a good way). But for some reason that god knows I was able to learn and practice and experience ❤️♥️❤️ have a great day!!

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      1. As it is often said, experience is the best teacher. Glad you learnt your lessons and changed into this charming personality you are. 😘 Have a great day too. ❤❤❤

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  1. Calling for help is that unconditional love and its ability to let them both go (your face and your butt), so that your heart finally has some air to breathe. A very courageous and self loving step ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋

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  2. We need help. If we always could make great decisions on our own, we never would have become and stayed in bondage of addiction. Being humble is imperitive to recovery. Help is required because no one is perfect but we help each other and are better together. And God gives us the most help when we humbly ask for help. Great point and such a great reminder, thank you for writing. 😃❤

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  3. Love the message in this post. It’s sad that in life we think we have to do everything on our own, then we are told we have an ego problem…lol But I think with little steps we can somehow normalize asking for help. We might just be someone else’s angel and not know it.

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    1. Ha ha ! I absolutely agree. I have learned it’s just a myth, a lie so to speak that when I am at my most vulnerable and can share it truthfully than I am actually in my greatest source of power. It takes courage and different experiences for me to keep that learning alive ❤️

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