WE heal 3/1

Physical healings seem a bit more basic – the mind can be involved – but the body instinctively knows what to do if you let it.

Emotional healing for me is a whole different ball game. When my “feelings” get hurt my instinct is to run away from it. No need to stick around for more.

However, I have learned in recovery that healing my mind and heart is just as important as healing the physical.

I am currently in the process of writing what is called a 4th step. I have done it before but each time it is new as I am continuously new.

I sit and I write about the things that I have hurt still lingering around in my heart and mind.

I wrote yesterday about my dad. Even with my dad I have run away and shut the door. I leave it open just a crack…

The beautiful thing about this process is I am asked to write my part in the hurt or resentment. And then I get to become aware of my patterns.

My pattern : “I shoot first and ask questions later or maybe not at all.”

My self centered behavior does not want to know why someone might have behaved in a certain way that hurt me. My self centeredness will assume and think the worst.

Bottom line – my dad – has reasons beyond reasons that I may never know, understand or figure out as to why our relationship is not what I would want.

Thing is though…I have never really asked him either.