Am I going through the pains of life or am I growing through them?
Depends on the day really.
I have a disease that took me to places I never thought I would go JUST TO AVOID PAIN.
I had no defense to handle life except to ingest things that would numb me.
I am not sure where or how I picked up the concept that life would NOT be difficult. But I surely thought and still sometimes think that everything should run smoothly and go exactly how I want it to.
But then life dope slaps me in the back of the head and says “Hiiii! Remember me!”
Today I can laugh, because it is exactly how I accept the difficulties. I realize they are opportunities for growth in some area of my humanness.
Today I have what is referred to as a “Spiritual Cushion”. I feel the pains of life and difficulties happen but I have the comfort of gods grace to soften the blows a bit.
Rather than reaching for a drink or a drug I reach for things that soften my angst through spiritual principles. Harmony, calmness, kindness, ease, gentleness, acceptance.
Whether I find those feelings in a recovery meeting by listening to others or out in nature by myself I know they exist and I seek to connect.
This is what recovery has taught me to do.
The daily addict 
Now that is the greatest love there is dear lady, you no longer have to reach for anything to make you feel better, what you now stand in is an acceptance of you and it alone makes you feel wonderful. That is finally loving yourself. That is the one thing in life we have ever looked for…and you found 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋
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❤️i believe it’s amazing Grace 💜 and it reminds me of Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz when Glenda the good witch tells her shes had the power all along –
Thank you Mark I hope your computer is all better 🙏💜❤️🌈
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Thank you kind lady, and I wish my computer had the power all along 🤣 But alas it is still testing me. I am being blocked quite strongly and I’m being obstinate so I had better ‘listen’ as I tell everyone else…or it might bite me or something 😀 I have a feeling I’m supposed to be outside for something…probably my health 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋
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Keep on keeping on. You doing it right.
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Thank you 🙏
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There is so much power to draw from nature, you just have to make a connection with it.
For myself, this is also the place where I can find the source of what others call “religion”.
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Yes 💜I agree! Nature has helped me heal in so many many ways -mentally physically and spiritually
Have a great day! Thank you for your words 💜
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What a wonderful image. A spiritual cushion. And where did we get the notion life wouldn’t be hard? A dis-ease of our culture.
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Yes!! Its nice to realize that not everything is as we were taught. I keep learning more and more! Thank you for your words.
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take the med
then head to exam
try to explain
to another
the gist
of not suffering
anymore than i already do
he does too
but hey i m his dad
so what can we do?
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‘Harmony, calmness, kindness, ease, gentleness, acceptance’ ~ wonderful things to reach for. ❤
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Thank you 🙏
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i understand the impulse to blot everything out, and good for you for being able to work beyond it.
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Thank you ! ❤️
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Dig it. Great post.
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Thank you! The simple things 💜
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