Hey God. Hey John. by:John Roedel 1/15

Me: Hey God.

God: Hello.

Me: I’m falling apart. Can you put me back together?

God: I would rather not.

Me: Why?

God: Because you aren’t a puzzle.

Me: What about all of the pieces of my life that are falling down onto the ground?

God: Let them stay there for awhile. They fell off for a reason. Take some time and then decide if you need any of those pieces back.

Me: You don’t understand I am breaking down!

God: No- you don’t understand. You are breaking through. What you are feeling are just growing pains. You are shedding the things and people in your life that are holding you back. You aren’t falling apart. You are falling into place. Relax. Take some deep breaths and allow those things that you don’t need anymore to fall off of you. Quit holding onto the pieces that don’t fit you anymore. Let them fall off. Let them go.

Me: Once I start doing that what will be left of me?

God: Only the best pieces of you.

Me: I’m scared of changing.


Me: Becoming who?

God: Becoming who I created you to be. A person of light and love and charity and hope and courage and joy and mercy and grace and compassion. I made you for more than the shallow pieces that you have decided to adorn yourself with that you cling to with such greed and fear. Let those things fall off of you. I love you! Don’t change! Become! Become! Become who I made you to be. I am going to keep telling you this until you remember it.

Me: There goes another piece.

God: Yep, Let it be.

Me: So…I am not broken?

God: Of course not! But you are breaking like the dawn. It’s a new day. Become!

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

18 thoughts on “Hey God. Hey John. by:John Roedel 1/15

    1. I think we all have that dark side with us John – it’s there for a reason. Call it the devil – evil – darkness whatever you like. I think (my humble opinion) it is also there for the good πŸ™πŸ’œ

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