“Fine I’ll just do it Myself” 5/9

God I am stubborn. I sincerely have to laugh at my most recent behavior. I can laugh because I have the understanding of “why” I was acting crazy and I have apologized to the other poor soul who was involved.

The other day when I got the news that Pickles my cat has cancer, I was definitely zapped into a state of fear. As I was driving home from the vet with the cat in the box meowing I called a very close person to me.

I was very emotional and I thought I was going to take the cat to go pick up the medication that he needed (it was at a different place than the vet). This person calmly said “just get yourself and the kitty home, get settled and I will take you to get the medication.“

Very kind indeed and good advice. I was able to get the cat home, fed and comfy and have a shower for myself. I asked my friend to come get me around 4pm and then I changed it to 4:30pm and he was very nice and said no problem.

But then I wanted to change it back to 4pm and he didn’t respond. I texted a few times and then my head started being an asshole. I started thinking he wasn’t coming at all and he was asleep or doing something way more important.

I am hysterically laughing as I am writing this because…I am absurd! ha ha

So finally at 4:31pm I walk outside and I don’t see him. I text him one last time stating “I don’t know what happened to you but I’m going myself to get Pickles medication. Thanks anyway.”

He texts back and says “I’m here.”

I almost did not get into the car with him I was so mad. I knew I was being absolutely ridiculous but I did not even care. My cat needed his meds and I needed help…(vulnerable) and if I could not get it the minute I wanted it from another than “Fine I’ll just do it myself!”

Thank goodness this individual has a heart of gold and a good understanding of my craziness. We drove together to get the meds. He told me afterwards once I calmed down and we could have a good laugh…. that he thought at one point I might jump out of the truck.

Oh my..being human is quite funny. Thank god I am learning to accept who I am and the others that love me can do the same.