Permission to cry 9/30

When I am writing a lot of times tears come. Words come too…sometimes foggy with tears.

I remember the first time someone gave me permission to cry.

It was 12 years ago, I was 35 years old and I was in rehab. I was starting to feel.

One of the staff members noticed me just fighting back my tears.

She gently came over to me and walked me over to my room. She told me to go and have a moment to cry it out.

I resisted at first of course with ” I am fine.” But then I did it.

I kneeled by my bed and put my head in my hands and cried for the first time as an adult. I mean REALLY cried.

There is a beautiful energy that produces tears. It can be tears of pain or joy. It is an energy moving through me.

It moves through and shines up my soul nice and pretty….kind of like shining up a car.

Next time I feel I need an excuse to cry I’ll just say “I’m cleaning my car.”

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

25 thoughts on “Permission to cry 9/30

  1. I still have trouble allowing myself to cry. Often when I am praying or worshipping, tears just come. I feel safe with God being who I am. I still can’t cry with anyone else. Very few people allow you true freedom of expression. It is good, though. It is real and raw.😃❤️

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  2. It seems a bit ironic that, in so many other situations, we’re looking to others for permission to behave a certain way, but when it comes to us shedding tears, the final permission comes from inside us, not from others.

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  3. Thank you for sharing this post about crying. I too, have found it difficult to cry, and yet it has been one of the most healing things to do. So glad you are writing to others, helping them have permission to “feel”, and that means permission to cry. God’s blessings upon you!

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