Starting over 2/1

At the age of 35 I entered into a life of recovery. I am currently 48 years old. I had gone to a detox that I don’t much remember and then onto a rehab.

I was given a chance to have all of the drugs leave my system in a protected environment. But then I was left with my mind and all it’s sickness and insanity.

I fortunately was given the willingness to do whatever it took to stay clean.

Who gave me the willingness…? I honestly can say that it was a combination of pain that I saw in my sons eyes…and gods grace for allowing me to see that pain.

I had to learn to get honest. I had to learn that I did not know everything.

In fact…I had to learn that I did not know ANYTHING.

I was to wipe the slate clean and start over. I was to repair the past as best I could and then move forward creating a life of joy for myself and for those around me.

I was to help another and not judge because we are all the same.

I was to find god and its beauty in so many things – even in the pain.

This life is incredible and I am so blessed to be in it.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

28 thoughts on “Starting over 2/1

  1. We are all meant to be witnesses and messengers in life. Witnesses to experiences within and without our bodies–then share messages about those experiences with others, particularly those who come after us…in order to lighten their pathways.

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  2. Very beautiful words Danielle. Those hard journeys are the builders of those three amigo’s of empathy, compassion and love so that we can see inside us. Sometimes the lights on inside but nobody is home…and sometimes the front door is wide open in a beautiful welcome to share what you’ve found. Thank you for inviting me in 😀❤️🙏🏽

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  3. I think the whole world is in the process of starting over for surely our old lives are over now. It is time to rebuild and think from our hearts not our minds. We will do this together and become at last who we truly wish to be….Thanks D…Onward and upward…VK ❤

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  4. Beautiful!

    Saint Teresa of Avila wrote a marvelous prayer:

    Redeem Lost Time.

    O my God! Source of all mercy!
    I acknowledge Your sovereign power.
    While recalling the wasted years that are past,
    I believe that You, Lord,
    can in an instant turn that loss to gain.
    Miserable as I am,
    yet I firmly believe that You can do all things.
    Please restore to me the time lost,
    giving me Your grace,
    both now and in the future,
    that I may appear before you in “wedding garments.”

    I keep this prayer close to me.

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  5. I start over every day. Every morning.

    At the age of 62 (I’ll be 63 in May), I’ve realized that I know very little. Almost nothing at all. Which is such a BLESSING.

    I want to learn everything good & kind & loving.

    Thanks for letting me share. Hugs

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  6. It can be both frustrating and invigorating to realize you don’t know ANYTHING. It took me until I was reading Socrates to realize, I REALLY don’t know anything. Thanks for sharing, dear Grace.

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