“Listen to your gut” they say.
For me a lot of times this means ignoring what the other prominent players in my life are saying and truly listening to myself.
When I first got clean I had no idea how to listen to my gut or what that even was. But over time and after stumbling many many many times….I started to learn.
Like the child learning to walk I have fallen more times in this area but continued to get up and not pick up a drink or drug over it.
There is a beautiful inner battle that the ego fights…but the intuition just sits still and knows.
My brain and my ego were so very loud. They told me that my worth would come from another’s praise. So I ended up engaged a few times and in a lot of interesting early recovery relationships.
The heart ache was the same…so I paid the price. But I learned.
Today I continue to learn. And the gut is labeled as such so I know when my belly feels off..some thing in my thinking is off too.
No need to press the panic button, I just need to take a look at myself and see what potential mess I might be about to step into.