My gut 6/16

“Listen to your gut” they say.

For me a lot of times this means ignoring what the other prominent players in my life are saying and truly listening to myself.

When I first got clean I had no idea how to listen to my gut or what that even was. But over time and after stumbling many many many times….I started to learn.

Like the child learning to walk I have fallen more times in this area but continued to get up and not pick up a drink or drug over it.

There is a beautiful inner battle that the ego fights…but the intuition just sits still and knows.

My brain and my ego were so very loud. They told me that my worth would come from another’s praise. So I ended up engaged a few times and in a lot of interesting early recovery relationships.

The heart ache was the same…so I paid the price. But I learned.

Today I continue to learn. And the gut is labeled as such so I know when my belly feels off..some thing in my thinking is off too.

No need to press the panic button, I just need to take a look at myself and see what potential mess I might be about to step into.

Published by gracefuladdict

I am a true addict living my life one day at a time in recovery. I have been substance free -meaning NO drugs or alcohol since 5/23/10. My intention is to share my experiences daily in the hopes to free others from the fears of being who they truly are. My wish is to bravely tell my truth so others can tell theirs as well. I want to be free of self hatred and doubt. I want to live a life of joy, kindness, love and grace. Thank you!

13 thoughts on “My gut 6/16

  1. Messes are in fact a beautiful teacher, their experiences show what not to do…so that we can be guided towards something better. And the intuition…I’ll be honest here, as I do not know for sure…but to me it ‘feels’ like my higher self giving that ‘touch’ of unconditional love…it always comes with a wow factor. Sometimes light, sometimes strong…but always enough to know we have indeed been touched by that intuition. But Spirit hasn’t defined it in any way…just myself opening to that lovely touch the more I trust and love me. That part of me then attracts accordingly. It has become more profound the further I step into that inner trust and love. A very honest post dear lady, that trust of self to share with that love found 😀 ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋

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  2. I’m only just starting over the past few years to show my scars and to be brave enough to tell how I earned them. Some were self-inflicted, some were not. But each was a lesson learned about what NOT to do if/when faced with a similar situation. I’m learning to be proud that I had the strength to fight in the first place!

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  3. Such an important skill. It requires humbleness, double checking, distrust of false-self and listening to God’s still small voice. So important- great lesson and topic! Thank you for the reminder, my friend.😃❤️

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  4. I usually find my first instinct is the right one and end up really annoyed or in a worse situation because I have failed to listen to those voices. Maybe it is the good Lord’s way of protecting us from harm. So often especially when I was younger, I allowed others to push me in directions I didn’t want to go. Good for you. I am many years down the track now but still find this advice still holds and yes, I’m still learning too!

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    1. Yes! When I was younger it was an everyday occurrence to follow what the others said or told me to do…even when my gut was doing kart wheels telling me nooo!! Your right – I think it is the good lord giving us free will to listen or not to the guidance of protection ❤️thank you!

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