There have been many situations in my life where I was trying to “make” something work.
Before entering into recovery I tried to make daily substance abuse fit into my life.
But time and time again I was shown that this was a disastrous path to keep embarking on. A moment of clarity and love set me free of all of that. A painful moment…but it did what it was supposed to…it allowed gods grace to guide me to change.
Then learning as a a sober individual to trust god – the universe – my own intuition – my feelings – other people – has been quite the process.
I have tried to make things work in my life that simply did not fit. But I kept trying anyways…using self will power and some grit. Sucking it up…staying tough…not giving up.
I have stayed in relationships, jobs, homes…far to long when the universe was showing me signs it is time to move.
I guess I am learning to choose my battles. Staying clean was absolutely worth fighting for…even when I wanted to use I did not.
When to say “that’s enough” today is very personal and comes from within.
I can trust gods grace today to show me when it’s time to pick a new path.
I’ve often wondered if it’s part of the disease by staying in places too long, especially jobs and relationships. Like, I believed I could fix them if I just hung in there. Lol Grateful to God and for sober intuition today. I couldn’t even fix myself, so not sure why I thought I could fix everything else.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Ha ha! That’s sooooooo true! Why am I trying to fix anybody?? When gods the true healer💕I mean we can help…but probably not as much as I would have liked …we sound like very similar birds Barb!
LikeLiked by 1 person
We do have similar stories! Yeah…I had to put my fixer tool box in retirement. ✨
LikeLiked by 1 person
This is so good. You are a great example.😃❤️
LikeLiked by 2 people
Thank you Tonya ❤️
LikeLike
😃❤️
LikeLike
We each do have our own path Danielle, only we ‘know’ our fears and the love needed to go beyond them. Great post dear lady ❤️🙏🏽
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thank you my friend❤️
LikeLiked by 1 person
And thank you for sharing your love 😀❤️🙏🏽
LikeLike
Love ❤️
LikeLiked by 1 person
So glad ❤️
LikeLiked by 1 person
I’ll say it again. Your vulnerability is refreshing and helpful to many.
LikeLiked by 1 person
I am happy you hear it ❤️
LikeLike